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Thursday, June 28, 2007


What is family?

Are they not people supposed to be always on your side?

Always?

how come you end up alone in the end?

gave my heart */ on 11:20:00 PM


Do you ever feel like giving up? Like sleeping and not waking up anymore?
When everything seems to go wrong; when tears do not help. When working hard, or having a positive outlook on your life makes everything even worse?
When everything goes against you, when obstacles are thrown your way, so many, so great, they deliver hard blows on you, punching you right to the ground.
You attempt to climb up, but as soon as you start to pick yourself up, another blow comes, this time stronger, more forceful than the first. Struggling doesn't help, for you are helpless now. you are tired.

Exhaustion. Yes, this probably is the right word. you are tired, tired of everything around you, tired of people not understanding, tired of having to trudge on despite desiring to stop, pause and take a breath, because you know you don't have the time. Time is running fast, seconds are ticking by, and you have to get all these done. there is no time for self-pity, no time for reflections, just simply no time.

No, it is not mere grades, though they do contribute alot to all these. It is all the tiny details, the little things you have to do, even the things where you are so confident you will sail through smoothly- they produce hiccups, they snarl at you, threatening, domineering.

Don't give up! You can't! You want to scream, you want to yell. But nothing comes out. Everything gets stuck in your throat, all that seems possible is a unwilling submission. You step back, you bury your head in your arms, and you sob. All these is a waste of time, you know, but you can't help it. You can't just keep continuiing.

You want, no, you need a break.

and its the first week of the second term.

gave my heart */ on 9:47:00 PM

Friday, June 15, 2007


i am traumatised.
i cannot believe the brutality of the Japanese.
i cannot do history PT!! i am repulsed and i feel like vomiting!
i am so tired of japanese, japanese and more japanese! i hate them!
GAH.
sorry. that was kind of a long needed venting of my frustration, yea.
i shall continue doing the darn history pt.
blog soon.

gave my heart */ on 7:37:00 PM